sleep

i hesitate to even say 'sleep' for fear that my 8 month old will pop awake at the mention of the word. yes, here we are...8 months into what will go down in the books as the sleepless era. in case you didn't know, my first child (aka the one i really love) is a natural-born sleeper. as i type this post, he is still sleeping as in went to bed last night and has not yet woken up...it's 2:18pm folks! have i told you how much i love that boy? he may grow to be a hellion of a teenager, but if he sleeps most of those years it just may be tolerable.
at first, i felt i could take credit for how incredibly micah slept. he slept through the night at 6 weeks old and rarely had to be rocked to sleep. we could just put him in his crib and he'd konk out. i felt like i'd conquered the baby wise techniques and wondered what all those other moms were whining about. realistically, micah came hard-wired to LOVE to sleep.
not so for little brother.
tristan is incapable of self-soothing. he has NEVER fallen asleep without a parade complete with a marching band and twirling batons. it's quite the production. he is, at this moment, asleep in his crib with my iphone blaring white noise. whatever it takes people.
what is funny (and by funny i mean sad ) is that here i am comparing these two little creatures like i swore i'd never do. one can't help but to compare experiences. it's how learn...a survival instinct, if you will. and here i am making all the same moves only to find they are useless. the force is strong with that little one. he's a fighter. i need a new strategy. so for the past few nights i've done another thing i swore i'd never do...co-sleep. yeah, i said it...and it left a bad taste in my mouth.
in my mind, co-sleeping has got to be a guaranteed way to ruin your kid for life...not to mention any chances of intimacy with that other guy who lives in my house. i think his name is greg but don't quote me on that. surely if i continue to allow this creature to sleep with me in my own bed he will get way to cozy and refuse to leave for like the next 10 years or until puberty makes it really awkward. but hey...at least we will be getting some rest...right?
honestly, i know very little about the techniques and side effects of co-sleeping. i'll google it soon. but for now...i'm getting some sleep.
by the way...2:47pm...micah's still snoozing. God bless him.